Deep Thoughts

well my car seems to be working again, thanks to Jason. Although it did overheat again today but there is a possibility that it is because my car was just thirsty and drank all the coolant we first gave it, and it just needed more... we shall see on Monday I guess when I drive to Mission... if I make it home, car's fixed, if not... well, hopefully there are some nice people in Mission.

Lately I've been dealing with a lot of crap on my mind. I realize that a lot of thoughts come from Satan and are intended to pull people away from God, but I didn't realize how extensive that can get. I've heard of spiritual warfare, but I really didn't realize how fierce a war it is. I think ever since I started fighting against the doubts I've had I've been feeling lonely... It's like every insecurity I've ever had is doubled since I've actively started trying to be closer to God. I think the hardest thing is fighting against these insecurities. Because doubts can be fought against, if you are intentional about having a relationship with God, it's really hard to deny that he's there. It's another story when it's about friendships, relationships, and people around you and what they are thinking. I mean, God is good, he is Love, he is everything that is great. And he loves me no matter what. So it really shouldn't matter what people think of other people. And I know this. But yet, these insecurities go through my mind. It doesn't help when people around me are hurting, or otherwise preoccupied. Gah, this post probably doesn't make any sense, I just needed an outlet to get some words out, even if they are totally incoherent...

And not to end this post on that note, because that would be utterly and completely depressing, here are some deep thoughts from the ever so inspirational Jack Handy...

"One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to Disneyland, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said. "Disneyland burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down, he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real Disneyland, but it was getting pretty late."

"Too bad you can't buy a voodoo globe so that you could make the earth spin real fast and freak everybody out."

"Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: "Mankind". Basically, it's made up of two separate words - "mank" and "ind". What do these words mean ? It's a mystery, and that's why so is mankind."

"If trees could scream, would we be so cavalier about cutting them down? We might, if they screamed all the time, for no good reason."

"When you die, if you get a choice between going to regular heaven or pie heaven, choose pie heaven. It might be a trick, but if it's not, mmmmmmm, boy."


Ok now that I'm fully inspired, and hopefully you are too, I shall go to sleep. Goodnight!