Just for Lindsey

Yes this post is now officially dedicated to Lindsey because she says I don't update enough. So here I am, updating. About what you ask? Well I haven't quite gotten as far as figuring out a subject so I think I'll just ramble.
Did you know that planning a wedding is stressful? Now factor in the budgetsotighticanhardlybreathe and add school, work, and the remote possibility of a life and you have one very stressed out Manda. (which basically just shows up as tired Amanda... same thing though) Today I really wanted to work on lots of wedding stuff but time just got away from me so I crammed in a few things in the late afternoon, and hopefully tomorrow we can work on a bit more. Maybe the planning isn't stressful, maybe it's the "oh crap I have to remember...[insert random task/decoration/deadline here]" that's the stressful part. And knowing full well how much of a procrastinator I am isn't helping anything. Oh well, as long as I get married, that's the important thing.
It's funny, I thought that as I started planning I would become more aware of what I want, what flowers I want, what kind of cake I want, all those kinds of details. But it's been the opposite. I'm beginning to care less about the details... Which is good really, especially when you have a really tight budget. All I know is that I've seen so many wedding fairs with ladies who take the whole thing just way too seriously and get lost in the commercial affair. I've found the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, and honestly I don't care if my cake has detail, or if I have some rare breed of lilies in my centrepieces. Of course there are things I want, or would like a lot, but really, when it comes right down to it, it's a day about a promise. And it's the promise I'm looking forward to.

Ok, the promise AND the wedding night.